Lists

Books to find as pdfs:

  • Kakehashi autobiography "I Believe in Music" 2002
  • Kakehashi: "Age Without Samples: Originality and Creativity in the Digital World" 2017
  • Makoto Ueda: "Literary and Art Theories of Japan"
  • 80s Details magazines
  • 70s Ty i Ja magazines
  • Mastering the Market Cycle by Howard Marks 2019

Music to check out:

Faye Wong, Mitsuko Uchida playing Schubert and Debussy, Kelly Moran, Can’s Lost Tapes, Dennis Russell Davies and Maki Namekawa performing four-handed Fidelio by Beethoven, Talk Talk… early blur,

Corporate and Regular WordPress-style websites made for content:

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The 60s

Suite Judy Blue Eyes, by CSN

It's getting to the point where I'm no fun anymore
I am sorry
Sometimes it hurts so badly I must cry out loud
I am lonely
I am yours, you are mine, you are what you are
You make it hard
Remember what we've said and done and felt about each other
Oh, babe have mercy
Don't let the past remind us of what we are not now
I am not dreaming
I am yours, you are mine, you are what you are
You make it hard

Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh
Tearing yourself away from me now you are free
And I am crying
This does not mean I don't love you I do that's forever
Yes and for always
I am yours, you are mine, you are what you are
You make it hard
Something inside is telling me that I've got your secret
Are you still listening?
Fear is the lock and laughter the key to your heart
And I love you
I am yours, you are mine, you are what you are
You make it hard
And you make it hard
And you make it hard
And you make it hard

Friday evening
Sunday in the afternoon
What have you got to lose?
Tuesday morning
Please be gone I'm tired of you
What have you got to lose?
Can I tell it like it is? (Help me I'm sufferin')
Listen to me baby
It's my heart that's a sufferin' it's a dyin' (Help me I'm dyin')
And that's what I have to lose (To lose)
I've got an answer
I'm going to fly away
What have I got to lose?
Will you come see me
Thursdays and Saturdays?
What have you got to lose?

Chestnut brown canary
Ruby throated sparrow
Sing a song, don't be long
Thrill me to the marrow

Voices of the angels
Ring around the moonlight
Asking me said she so free
How can you catch the sparrow?

Lacy lilting lady
Losing love lamenting
Change my life, make it right
Be my lady

Que linda me la traiga Cuba
La reina de la Mar Caribe
Cielo sol no tiene sangreahi
Y que triste que no puedo vaya oh va, oh va

Into the Mystic, by Van Morrison

We were born before the wind
Also younger than the sun
Ere the bonnie boat was won
As we sailed into the mystic
Hark, now hear the sailors cry
Smell the sea and feel the sky
Let your soul and spirit fly
Into the mystic
And when that fog horn blows
I will be coming home, mmm mmm
And when the fog horn blows
I want to hear it
I don't have to fear it
I wanna rock your gypsy soul
Just like way back in the days of old
Then magnificently we will float
Into the mystic
When that fog horn blows
You know I will be coming home
And when that fog horn whistle blows
I gotta hear it
I don't have to fear it
And I wanna rock your gypsy soul
Just like way back in the days of old
And together we will float
Into the mystic
Come on girl
Will they stop now
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Bill Callahan Lyrics

River Guard, by Bill Callahan of Smog, from "Knock Knock" recorded in 1998.

When I take the prisoners swimming
They have the time of their lives
I love to watch them floating
On their backs
Unburden and relaxed
I sit in the tall grass and look the other way
And when I hall them in they always say
Our sencencess will not served
We are constantly on trial
It's a way to be free
Most nights I go for a drive
To to the highest place I can find
Stand there on a cliff with gooseflesh
Watching the wind rip the leaves of the trees
Death defying
Every breath
Death defying
Soon we all be back in the yard
Behind the wall
Leaving heart
Dreaming of cool rivers and tall grass
We are constantly on trial
It's a way to be free
We are constantly on trial
It's a way to be free

Red Apples, the early version, not the one that appeared later on 1997's "Red Apple Falls"

I went down to the river
To meet the widow
She gave me an apple
And it was red
I slept in her black arms
For a century
She wanted nothing in return
I gave her nothing in return
The ghost of her husband
Beautiful as a horse
Pulled up an apple cart
Full of millions of red apples for us
Full of millions of red apples for us
I went down to the river
To meet the widow
She gave me an apple
And it was red
I slept in her black arms
For a century
She wanted nothing in return
I gave her nothing in return
I went down to the river
To meet the widow

Riding for the Feeling, on 2011's "Apocalypse"

It's never easy to say goodbye
To the faces
So rarely do we see another one
So close and so long
I asked the room if I'd said enough
No one really answered
They just said, "Don't go, don't go, don't go, don't go, don't go"
Well all this leaving is never ending
I kept hoping for one more question
Or for someone to say,
"Who do you think you are?"
So I could tell them
With intensity, the drop evaporates by law
In conclusion, leaving is easy
When you've got some place you need to be
I'm giving up this gig for another season
With the TV on mute
I'm listening back to the tapes
On the hotel bed
My, my, my apocalypse
My, my, my apocalypse
I realised I had said very little about ways or wheels
Or riding for the feeling
Riding for the feeling
Is the fastest way to reach the shore
On water or land
Riding for the feeling, riding for the feeling, riding for the feeling
Riding for the feeling, riding for the feeling, riding for the feeling
What if I had stood there at the end
And said again, and again, and again, and again, and again, and again
An answer to every question
Riding for the feeling, riding for the feeling, riding for the feeling
Riding for the feeling, riding for the feeling, riding for the feeling
Riding for the riding, for the riding, and for the ride
Riding for the feeling, riding for the feeling, riding for the feeling
Would that have been a suitable goodbye?

I Break Horses from 1996's "Kicking a Couple Around" by Smog

Well, I rode out to the ocean
And the water looked like tarnished gold
I rode out on a broken horse
Who told me she'd never felt so old
She asked me if I'd feed her
And ride her now and then
No no no, no no no, no no no
I break horses
I don't tend to them
I break horses
They seem to come to me
Asking to be broken
They seem to run to me
I break horses
Doesn't take me long
Just a few well-placed words
And their wandering hearts are gone
At first her warmth felt good between my legs
Living breathing heart-beating flesh
But soon that warmth turned to an itch
Turned to a scratch
Turned to a gash
I break horses
I don't tend to them
Tonight I'm swimming to my favorite island
And I don't want to see you swimming behind
Tonight I'm swimming to my favorite island
And I don't want to see you swimming behind
No, I break horses
I don't tend to them

Dress Sexy at My Funeral, from 2000's Dongs of Sevotion

Dress sexy at my funeral my good wife
Dress sexy at my funeral my good wife
For the first time in your life

Wear your blouse undone to here
And your skirt split up to there

Dress sexy at my funeral my good wife
For the first time in your life
Dress sexy at my funeral my good wife

Wink at the minister
Blow kisses to my grieving brothers

Dress sexy at my funeral my good wife

And when it comes your turn to speak
Before the crowd
Tell them about the time we did it
On the beach with fireworks above us
On the railroad tracks
With the gravel in your back
In the back room of a crowded bar
And in the very grave yard
Where my body now rests

Dress sexy at my funeral my good wife
Dress sexy at my funeral my good wife
For the first time in your life

Also tell them about how I gave to charity
And tried to love my fellow man
As best I could
But most of all don't forget about the time
On the beach
With fireworks above us
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Ballads

River of Deceit, by Mad Season, 1994

My pain is self-chosen
At least, so the prophet says
I could either burn
Or cut off my pride and buy some time
A head full of lies is the weight, tied to my waist

The river of deceit pulls down, oh oh
The only direction we flow is down
Down, oh down
Down, oh down
Down, oh down
Down, oh down

My pain is self-chosen
At least I believe it to be
I could either drown
Or pull off my skin and swim to shore
Now I can grow a beautiful shell for all to see

The music for "River of Deceit" came out of rehearsals that the group had before vocalist Layne Staley joined the band. Much of "River of Deceit", lyrically, was inspired by The Prophet by Khalil Gibran, which Staley read during the making of the album. Drummer Barrett Martin said, "Layne Staley felt as though he was on a spiritual mission through his music. Not a rock mission, a spiritual mission." Staley also wrote the song partially about his drug addiction which would eventually lead to his death in 2002.


Chloe Dancer/Crown of Thorns, from Mother Love Bone's 1989 "Shine"

Chloe don't know better
Chloe just like me, only beautiful
A couple of years of difference
But those lessons never learned
Chloe danced the tables in the french quarter
She always been given so I can't always make her laugh
But I'm proud to say
And I won't forget
Time spent laying by her side
Time spent laying by her side
And dreams like this must die
And dreams like this must die
And dreams like this must
You ever heard the story of Mr.Faded Glory?
Say he who rides a pony must someday fall
Been talkin' to my alter
Say life is what you make it
And if you make it death well then rest your soul away
Away away yeah child
It's a broken kind of feeling
She'd have to tie me to the ceiling
A bad moon's a comin' better say your prayers, child
I want to tell her that I love you
But does it really matter?
I just can't stand to see you dragging down Again
Again
My baby again, oh, yeah
So I'm singing
And this is my kinda love
It's the kind that moves on
It's unkind and leaves me alone
Yes it does
And this is my kinda love
It's the kind that moves on
It's unkind that leaves me alone
I uses to treat you like a lady
Now you're a substitute teacher
This bottle's not a pretty, not a pretty sight
I owe the man some money so I'm turnin' over honey
You see Mr.Faded Glory is once again doin' time, oh yeah
And this is my kinda love
It's the kind that moves on
It's the kind the leaves me alone
Yes, it does
And this is my kinda love
It's the kind that moves on
It's the kind that, it's the kind that
It leaves me alone, yeah
Like a crown of thorns
It's all who you know, yeah
So don't burn your bridges woman
'Cause someday, yeah
Kick it, oh yeah
And this is my kinda love
It's the kind that moves on
It's the kind that leaves me alone, yeah
This is my kinda love
It's the kind that moves on
It's the kind that, it's the kind that, yeah, yeah
Baby
I said com' on, com' on, com' on com' on yeah
I said baby
Don't burn your bridges, woman
Don't come back here
I said good times, tu tu tu
Tu tu tu
I said tu tu tu

"Chloe Dancer" is about lead singer Andy Wood's muse/fiancee, Xana La Fuente, who had planned to be a stripper to support the pair, but left the club after one hour. "Crown of Thorns" was written about their nasty breakup over his on and-off-again dabbling in heroin and alcohol. "This song is about a relationship ruined by drugs," she explains. "He wrote it about our near breakup, and how I tried to control him and the drugs--hence his allusion to being tied to the ceiling."


Wilma's Rainbow, from Helmet's 1994 "Betty"

You heard about, 'be your own man'
You talk a lot and loud
Illustrate the obvious boy
You're mentally endowed
Watershed year comes
You're flush with fever
The richest junk dealer
Honestly, a book you read once let you
Think in rhyme. the old extreme sits
Pale and molds now for the
Millionth time
Wilma's rainbow of peaceful colors
The richest junk dealer

Björk - Hyperballad

We live on a mountain
Right at the top
There's a beautiful view
From the top of the mountain
Every morning I walk towards the edge
And throw little things off
Like car-parts, bottles and cutlery
Or whatever I find lying around
It's become a habit
A way to start the day

I go through all this
Before you wake up
So I can feel happier
To be safe up here with you

It's real early morning
No-one is awake
I'm back at my cliff
Still throwing things off
I listen to the sounds they make
On their way down
I follow with my eyes 'til they crash
Imagine what my body would sound like
Slamming against those rocks
When it lands
Will my eyes
Be closed or open?
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Computer Buyers Guide (Why I can't get a new laptop)

To find your processor, type

cat /proc/cpuinfo

Go to https://www.cpubenchmark.net/cpu.php?cpu=Intel+Core+i7-3520M+%40+2.90GHz&id=890

...

Comparing familiar machines

x230, 2846, 1726

Intel Core i7-3520M @ 2.90GHz (2012)

...

L380 Yoga, 5810, 1885

Intel(R) Core(TM) i5-8250U CPU @ 1.60GHz

...

GPD Pocket 3 8", 9350, 2445

core i3-1125G4 (2021)

...

Acer Aspire One (2009), 157, 234 sic, and other processors had more, like up to 500 or so

Intel Atom N280 @ 1.66GHz

...

...

UPDATE from 2020-04-01 April. I ended up getting a new machine, mostly because the x230 something else failed on it every month, most noticeably the battery (replacement I bought a couple months ago because the original died in a week or two) which is usually completely unchargeable. Not a problem with the machine, but with German Amazon that advertises it as being basically new but really it arrived chipped, broken, and things started failing on it immediately and continued. Also, I was unable to post a review (negative) or comment to warn others. It seems Amazon Germany sensors reviews, so other people now are buying the same machine from the same company.

I ended up getting a 380 Yoga because it's more than twice as powerful by benchmark numbers as my x230, and has touch screen and yogas. It has only 8gig of RAM but it's expandable. It also uses M.2 which is reportedly faster than my SSD cartridges for the x230. So far though I'm frustrated and want to seriously just smash this machine to pieces for satisfaction. I don't know why companies can't make products as good as they did 8 or 10 years ago in computers. Problems with the 380 Yoga (note: running Ubuntu Studio 20), and I put in a 1tb Samsung m.2 hard disk which appeared to be faster than the original but I'm not sure:

  • If you don't take your microSD out before opening the case, it will likely break it in half (this happened) - I mean your microSD is properly inserted in the machine and it pull it half out and breaks it - Design by Lenovo
  • Can't open case with pen in either I think - could break or bend pen (not sure)
  • The trackpad is garbage. You can't use it. It jumps around sensing your finger or something, constantly
  • Too big. It's not the little laptop I want to carry around or put on my lap. It's actually quite big, despite people saying it's smaller. It feels in size like a regular laptop, which is not good
  • Too heavy. It's I think over 3 pounds. My x230 is lighter, under 3 pounds although I want something about 1.5 pounds like my Acer aspire 11.5 inch which is my ideal computer body (it just doesn't have the power, and takes minutes to boot and load a music DAW, all you can really do on it is type text, barely watch YouTube, and run maybe one or two non-instensive tracks on a DAW).
  • Heats up so much you will be sweating if it's on your lap. Fan is on the bottom not on the side where it should be.
  • Speakers quiet like the x230, neither any good for that. You can't hear them.
  • Power adapter in is like a phone charger adapter. I know it will soon bend inside and break when it gets pulled a bit
  • Keypad, despite people saying it's Lenovo Thinkpad and the best keypads, isn't that great. The x230 is better. I feel I'm missing keys sometimes on the 380
  • Power seems to be better, as a 20 minute slideshow (with a couple video clips in it) video I wanted to render on Kdenlive took like 20 minutes instead of about 2 hours (I didn't complete it) on the x230. However a second video I wanted to make that had more video clips in it's makeup, which was about 30 minutes long, said originally about 35 minutes, but then crashed. Then I tried a few more times and it said 45 minutes or 1 hour 20 minutes, but always crashed in the render. So I took half out, but the 12 or 15 minute video also crashed.
  • Touchscreen despite being much newer doesn't really seem that much more accurate than the touchscreen on the Elitebook 2760p (very comparable to the x230 in being a small, powerful, well build machine from 8 to 10 years ago, although I would never buy any other HP because I've hated every one I've bought, and I've mostly had HPs until I started with Thinkpads, and just had one Lenovo before which for it's power-grade I'm still happy with (it's also an older one though). The pen in the Yoga 380 is also not as great as I hoped. It has two buttons but I don't know what they do. I thought they'd be like a right and left click button, but they're not. The pen is only better than your finger or mouse it seems for actually drawing or writing, any clicking or dragging is still better with a mouse.
  • The screen has huge black borders around it. I thought they'd maximize space by having a screen almost as big as the panel, which is what it sounded like they were doing from reviewers, but the screen looks quite small on the big panel. The screen seems brighter than the x230, which makes me notice new things in pictures I was used to viewing on the x230, but it also seems like it might just have the saturation turned up.
  • The wifi card may be weaker than the x230. On the x230 I frequently have full or almost full, while the 380 has usually 30%. Maybe it's the same speed downloading though, I'm not sure.

Posiitives: - It does seem to run VMs faster. The Windows7 VM with Ableton seems to respond faster than on x230. Not fast enough to actually play midi notes (you hit a key and then hear the note), but faster anyway, noticeably.

To me, this machine seems like you'd use it sitting on a desktop, but if that's what you want to do, why wouldn't you use a 17 inch or greater? As a portable it's kind of a piece of shit so far. The inability to buy in 2020 a machine that suits my needs is very frustrating. If Sony's VAIO can support linux and they make a Yoga touchscreen for their tiny 11 or 12-inch, 1 pound computers I would buy that at basically any price.

I'm thinking now to get another x230, despite being less powerful, and being careless with this Yoga 380 until it gets stolen or broken. Or maybe just sell it.

What pisses me off is the people at Lenovo can't make a decent machine to compare with something made by other people there 10 years ago. All they have to do is make it a bit smaller (mostly thinner) and lighter and more powerful, and put on a yoga touchscreen which they had 10 years ago (although then they used a swivel screen I think, as did Elitebook).


ORIGINAL BLOG POST:

Reminder because I keep forgetting what's wrong with them.

(Another reminder: It's at least an option to get one of these, then run Win7 Ableton in a VM. There is lag you won't be able to get past, especially as regards recording live audio [not fully tested]), but it's an option. You also would have to learn how to pass a midi keyboard through into the VM if you want to use that [with lag probably too]. This method basically converts Ableton into just a sequencer, because the time lag is like half a second, for example, for a midi note played through the computer keyboard. This is worse than it sounds, because in practice you will play something, then hum a little melody, but you won't be able to add that melody to your song except through extremely difficult processing.)

Probably for music production the best way is Win7 (no internet) with Ableton. This sucks, but Bitwig is shit, and also you can't plug audio into the X230 using Linux because 1)the mic doesn't work it seems and 2)your preferred audio interface also doesn't work (no drivers on the newer Ubuntus for it, plus even if you get it working its big and you have to plug it in. Do you really need internet on your laptop? Can you just use your phone for that? Still, that means no touch screen to arm tracks and press record.

TO CONTRAST WITH: Thinkpad X230 i5 with 16RAM. Good: Good enough to do all the programs. Can swap SSDs. Can swap RAM ("socketed RAM," not soldiered). Doesn't look valuable. Isn't costly.

Kickers: Only 4500benchmark i5 (2300 or something on other website). Kind of thick and heavy, compared with ideal (ideal is like an Acer Aspire V5 11.5inch plastic laptop). Does not Yoga or have touch screen (although there is a swivel/touch X230). Battery only a couple of hours (once you hack the Lenovo hardware whitelist).

TARGET: 12-inch or less, very small, very light (1.5pounds or less), Linux-friendly, access to swappable SDD card, access to swappable RAM slots, powerful (at least around 8000 benchmark). Good battery life. Touch screen. Yoga-ing ability. Swappable battery.

(Purposes: audio processing, video processing.)

New Thinkpads: none under 13.3 inch most larger, plus limited storage disks, it seems, and all 3 pounds or more.

Thinkpad x390

Around the same width as x230 (0.7 inch), 13.3 screen.

13" laptop is designed with a 12" footprint. 2.7 pounds.

As equipped with the Core i7-8565U, the ThinkPad X390 posted excellent benchmark (like 8250). This four-core, eight-thread chip has just a 1.8GHz base clock, but an impressive 4.6GHz Turbo Boost.

The storage is tweakable via an M.2 Type-2280 slot (under the bottom panel) for PCI Express solid-state drives (SSDs). Lenovo offers up to 1TB options.

14 hour battery

KICKERS: RAM is soldiered in and not upgradable (or fixable). Not sure if it can take bigger than 1TB SDDs?

https://www.pcmag.com/roundup/330389/the-best-lenovo-laptops

https://www.pcmag.com/review/369042/lenovo-thinkpad-x390

https://www.lenovo.com/us/en/laptops/thinkpad/thinkpad-x/X390/p/20Q0002EUS

https://www.windowscentral.com/how-upgrade-ssd-your-lenovo-thinkpad-x390

Thinkpad L390 (Front runner because its fairly swappable and has touchscreen and yogas. Main problem is it is a bit big and heavy)

This is a business-class laptop. A bit bigger than I'd like, and metal. It has good ports, and comes with the 8900benchmark i7-8565U 4core i7 (like basically all these laptops in 2019). It has 2 removable RAM ports (so you can go up to 32gig). It also Yogas (keys don't lock on this one, they just don't function), and has a touch screen and a pen with its own charging bay. Battery life about 6 or 7 hours (less than X1 Carbon by far or other more expensive Thinkpads). Also built to operate in really high temperatures for long periods of time.

Stickers: 3 pounds a bit heavy, size a bit big. Has that hard disk that screws in (so I can't just slide my 2tb ssd in, I guess, like I can with an older machine).

DELL XPS 13 9380

12 inches and 2.7 pounds. 11 hour battery. $900 and up. Soldiered RAM up to 16GIG.

Is it Linux-friendly? What's up with the ports?

Dell Latitude 7390

At 0.7 by 12 by 8.2 inches

12 hour battery

SONY VIAOS (would be great if they had touchscreen, Yoga-ed, and had swappable RAM)

Sony is making some nice little VAIO's again like the SX12. They're very small, and super light (like 1.5 pounds I think, or 1 pound). Size is good. They come with the 8900benchmark i7. They have good ports, including VGA. I think they have decent battery life. This is like a nicer version of the Acer Aspire V5 11.5 inch.

Kickers: I think RAM is soldered on up to 16GIG. They do not Yoga. They are not touch screen. Price is high for some (1200 and up), considering the things they don't do. Battery life only like 5 hours (not the 10 they say). They run really not like 90 when doing lots of processing (not dangerous to CPU hot but hot). Smaller trackpad. Harder to take apart (lots of phillips screws, then use a guitar pick to pry it apart).

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